aaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!
GOD
art is just the best thing EVER created. YESSS!!!!
no matter how hard i try to get into other things in my life and how i think i could live without it, art (specifically music) always reigns supreme. obviously other things are interesting, totally necessary and clearly inform art in all its infinite creations, but i mean SERIOUSLY, it is so incredible it just wigs me out! its so reliable and judges no one, and for that i am truly grateful. being a part of something that is totally bigger than yourself is really really moving. i dont mean like running for a good cause(which i am doing in april; running a 10k whatup!) or voting for a new president or anything, all of which i am supremely down with and think are really awesome, i am talking about something that is very direct and human made but isnt human in end product; something that gives such an immediate and pure feeling that is undeniable and extremely deep.
i do realize that the other things mentioned above (running for a cause/voting) are actually pretty similar in concept, just not as much in actually being carried out. this came to me by thinking that no matter how personal music is to me and how much i love it by myself (which is really #1 in my book), i still love to have connections with other people who enjoy it too, and furthermore i wish and hope that someday i am able to be part of something that is able to reach the masses and affect people positively. i want to be doing some cool shit i mean gawd dayum! this also brings another point; what i will do post vcu. hmm..probably still just teach and maybe work somewhere else for a little while, but then i have GOT GOT GOT to move from richmond! not that i am even hating on richmond, but i will have been here for a minute and extinguished my welcome. this also brings up more job/school shit. i think going to grad school is probably going to be a good idea. like, really good i think. i’ve been trying to think of what else i can do besides music. there are obviously so many things out there, but i just dont know if i do any of them well enough to go to f’ing grad school to do. which brings yet another point! should i really go to grad school for music???? umm, i cant definitely see why i shouldnt (haha/dark), but i can also see why i definitely should as well. straight up, i want my life’s work to be in music no matter how bad i suck or think i suck or think i’m great or whatever. i know i can do some shit well, and that’s enough for me to keep rocking. man, chasing that dream is so ridiculous. the chance that my absolute dreams will come true is probably 1 in a billion, but dont think for a second that shit will slow me down, cuz it wont!!! i just see it as there are so many people out there that i know for a FACT are extremely more retarded than i am and living the dream, and there are total geniuses that are working in restaurants their whole lives, so if thats the case then why would i not have the biggest dreams possible? exactly. i just want to make and be a part of music that is accessible to anyone and can reach as many people as possible while still being individual sounding somewhat (at least to me). but isnt it all individual to someone??? everyone gets dogged no matter what you make. NO MATTER WHAT. everything has a stigma to it. everything ‘sounds like ‘something’, etc etc. so fuck it, just do it and do it well and rock it.
aaah i cant wait to live the rest of my 20’s and to see what happens! probably some nuts shit is gonna go down!!!
back to the program…
so,
‘art’, or however you want to define, it is totally insane because its absolutely everywhere and in everyone no matter if you call yourself an artist or not. people contain so many bizarre characteristics thats it seems inevitable that we would produce such amazing works. taste is also something that is so individual and so relative that its mind boggling (blog-ling?). ive had this convo w/ myself and others so many countless times over the years that there is definitely no answer to it. case in point, i am still completely enthralled with the fleet foxes and know that others feel the same way, but there are plenty of people that hate on them all over the place. why do i love it and why do people hate it?
I HAVE NO F’ING IDEA AND THATS WHAT IS SO AWESOME.
man, so yea i just got hyped up there for a second, but i just still get so moved by these really personal mementos or whatever type of expression that people make, and i couldnt be happier about the prevelance of this in our world.
3 years ago